One Fine Day

i used to like writing those essays a lot,u know those like "24 hrs at a station" or "my worst day" well today the 29th of feb(theres sum irony in the fact tht this day cums only only in 4 yrs n it had to be like this) was pretty much a script 4 one of those essays.i dont think i have ever had such mixed emotions in a single day let alone a week.im tired ,stressed mentally more than physically, deliriously happy,utterly lost, completely betrayed (pretty much brutus style) and a hundred different things at the same time. i think i need to write n by that i mean just write what im thinking n not consciously try to be anything only for the reason that i think a day like this shudnt go completely undocumented and for my own selfish reasons im gonna do it.
A background of the week till now is quite necessary ,i think.get up at 7 everyday to reach college only to discover that theres nothing to do for about an hour ,getting shoved and pushed n touched in god knows what places while trying to do the herculean task of getting into a 185 at peak time,see jodha akbar twice,miss the trains i want 4 times in 1 day n 2 buses and get stuck in traffic in a place where theres never any traffic with two 3 kg books to carry and lose over 1n half hr in the process,think about hrithik and cooo over the way he stood, the way he said his dialogues and pretty much everything,spend more than 15 hrs outside home everyday and out of that about 5 hrs in travellin alone without any music,go to the dr twice and still not know what to do,have three assignments sitting on my head of which two havent been even been started,lose my temper countless times ,getting reprimanded twice in one day for over 1 hr each for something which im not totally responsible and more.
So when the day started for me at 5.45 i was optimistic that today would be different coz im always happy when the eagerly awaited weekend approaches. i got late as expected, i missed my train as expected,i got another train which took me to the original train n faster,seriously not expected,and then finally reach college .my day starts with the quiz eliminations and with the news that im supposed to speak about agaist animal testing in less than an hour,(sumthing which i dont totally beleive in).the quiz goes bad enough considering our team had won the second prize last year-[strike 1]and then im supposed to rush to perform a skit which iv been practising for over 3 weeks and am still not confident about. i do it n i dont mess up even once[point1]and surprisingly people even laugh for the right reasons.i rush to learn what im supposed to gab about for 15 mins with conviction. the entire debate seems like, on hindsight 6 hungry people pouncing upon a piece of meat wanting to have the biggest share,it was funny enough though[point2].
Apparently theres some problem in the quiz and we have to give it again[point 3],but its tougher[too soon,bac to point 2].on the last minute of the quiz i am interrupted and as expected i lose it but only for a bit[strike 3].it offends a lot of people[strike 4].and no one wants to talk about it ,leaving me with a pile of work and no one to ask for help[strike5].i lose an assignment[ [strike6].n that too of the most sanki character of the class[strike7].i find it soon enough[point3].im done with my responsibilities as a cr[point4].i confront the people concerned with the whole issue[strike 8,9,10,11,12,13,14,............].I shout,scream,cry and when im done i try not to think about it[strike (iv forgotten the no)].i hear someone sing[point5].i forgive but i NEVER forget.im around crazy chapri people again[point6].i see my friends dance and cheer really loud for them[point7]. i get to go visit my niece[point8] but i dont get a ricksha[strike].people actually come and tell that our skit was good[point (i cant measure this one )]iv pretty much cooled down but definetly in a different satte of mind.have made a couple of decisions and hope to stand by them.[point9].decide to forgive and be forgiven but never forget.exasperated at the amount of emotions iv gone through in less than 6 hrs,sad that things dont turn out the way i thought they were[strike].i get ricksha[point].smile while thinking of some body[point].see my niece [again cant measure this one].eat after over 12hrs[double point].get to go home in my car[point].hear the news that i might be selected [point] this one was definetly one of the highlights of the day
this wasnt the saddest day of my life nor was it my happiest nor was it the most exciting.but it definetly was something .something i dont want to forget mainly for the reason that i came to know how fickle evrything around is.one minute you think your life is secure and complete and the next you are all alone in a pit and in the next ur again on top of everest.i learnt to not take anything seriously or anything lightly and stop not thinking of things.the cynical part of me wants to take over completly and become wary of the people that surround me and the situations that are around me and lose faith in all my beleifs but the optimistic part, though feeble, tells me that all it was,was just a bad day and it too like tht doorman in "my best friends wedding "said,' it too shall pass'.i hope the cynical part of me doesnt take over .i sincerely hope so.